The City Market

Went out with a group of friends from Form 6 to watch movie, The Karate Kid. Just curious, why is it named as Karate Kid when the martial arts that Jayden Smith was thaught was Chinese Kung Fu? Nevermind me, the movie is still a good one although I expect more out of it. After that, we went to KFC for brunch and we have Family feast set B x 2. And we did finish all of it and I even takeaway the bones for my dogs. LOL~ Then, I went to do a few errands for my mom and go back home.

Just want to shout out here that the best beef noodle is still at the old market in the city. Not to mention that, I ordered "special" from the drinks stall, the 1 next to sotong kangkung, "wat" Ann, is nice. The guy add lots of milk into it and cost only RM 1.80/bowl. And the beef noodle cost around RM4. The price varies depending on the size of the bowl of noodle you've ordered.

Truth be told, its been years sice the last time I went there and it still look very much the same. The soya bean drink apek still add ice to the already diluted soya bean. There are this one time, my mom and bro told me that they drag the ice across the floor of the market to their stall. You might think that this is still acceptable but hear this, the ice wasn't wrapped up with anything!!! It was pure ice only slidding on the floor. This make it seems like the scene where the soya bean apek halfed the ice by smashing against the pole doesn't matter much.

Till here. Feeling sleepy already. Nites...

P/s: Nice meeting all of you ( Form 6 Friends) again~ Wish you the best of luck in whatever you planned to do next.

From The Bottom of My Heart Where It Hurts The Most

I realised something, suddenly. I've come to realised how much I hate myself by blaming others on what I could not do which in turn if only I tried harder, I would not need to blame others on what I could not achieve and starting to love myself again. Do anything I say make sense to you?And to make matter worse, I knew about it and seems to do nothing about it although I want it to change so badly. This left me feeling patheticand parasite-ing.

I grew greedy with power and wealth that it blinds me sometimes. It is such a shame to say I'm doing things to others what they did to me. I grew tired of constantly been pick upon and did it to someone else who did nothing to me. Life is so unfair!! Why couldn't I do it to the same person that did it to me? Am I scared or threathened by them?

I don't know bout you but I have hard times trying to keep my friends. I'm not sure what to do with them. I don't get along very well with my friends from college and the last time I actually see and spoke to them was months ago. My friends from school are deminishing. My National Service friends was a past history since it been 3 years I think, since the last time we met up. One of the reasons are most probably the fact that they are on the west and we are on the east side of the country. but netherless, although we have few friends who's living in the same city, we didn't meet up. Our friendship only stretches far out on FB.

Now that all of us are growing up, it makes me feel like we have less and less time with one another. It may sound to you as if I'm talking about my partner or something but it's not. I never like anybody to the extent that I have a feeling and desire to have them. Personally, I think it's troublesome but from what I hear from my friends, you don't get lonely. It would be a lie if I say I don't get lonely sometimes but in the end, I got through that feeling and continue living my life. Back to my story, I'm actually referring to my childhood friends. All of us grew up and change right before our very own eyes and sometimes we are not used to the change and fall apart from each other. I don't want it to happen to me. Pathetically, they are the last of friends that I could pour my heart to. Although at times I didn't give much to tell about me to them but if I feeling like telling somebody, they would be the very first few people I would call. I would have like it if they are someone I can call when my heart was aching mad like hell. But I wouldn't want to burden them with my problems. One person suffering is way better than two.

Oh well, shit happens.

Yours truly,
The Pain Of Being Stabbed Right At The Heart

Sucks to be me

I realised it had been almost a year since the last time I blog. Actually, I wasn't planning to continue blogging but tis few recent months I felt like I got tons to say but nowhere to say it out. So I'll give the preview of the past months that I've been living in.

As a start, I just completed my course and had yet to gradute officially but my future already seem awfully dark. I don't think I'll be able to go anywhere to study or anything. My dad was awesome in making empty promises and my mom was terrific in bringing me down. It seems that they are unable to support my studies but the rest of my brothers still could pursue theirs. The truth is i am jealous of them like hell much. I'm jealous cause they can choose their own paths and I on the other hand, have to take whatever they gave me. Well hell, I even jealous that they got penis instead of a vagina with a monthly scheduled pain and also the fact that they can pee standing.

Truthfully, I'm terrified to be adult. To me, they seems like a bunch of parasite robots and untrustworthy. I dont want to grow up but it seems to me I had no choice but to step into this gruesome world of liars. Not so hopefully, I can do it by selling, donating and getting rid of all my childish stuffs like my soft toys, bean bag, speaker and guitar that tied me up in the wold of teenagers that fill with dreams and hopes and optimism.

But maybe I can keep my guitar?? I really loved it...

I've been eating non stop ever since I've finished in April. Eat, sleep, do house works are all I ever did since. My hatred to my mom was building up intensely that I started to avoid seeing and talking to her. For some reasons, to me, it seems like she is getting more selfish and stingy as the day passes. I hated the fact that I felt like I was not appreciated. I hate it even more when I felt like i was being used. Being used by somebody makes you seem like you're just plain too stupid to realise it.

On the side note, I think like everything else in the world, I've changes too, regretably. I've gotten more stingy, terrible to friends, the not caring attitude and worst of all, I've become a person that I myself dislike. What happened? I don't want to be the me now, it's pathetic. I mean I am pathetic. Keep hoping that things will work out like it always do. Seems like I ran out of luck. No more I'm so lucky I got through without breaking a sweat.

Signing off,

sucks to be me

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I was just drinking the last can of previous days beer and puffing my lungs out while looking out through my half-opened window, wondering why do I stopped writing...

Writing used to be a huge vital part of me but now I care less. I'm not really sure myself bout how I feel nor what I was thinking. Things just don't seem so important anymore. I couldn't get myself to study, which Im supposed to as later today,2-5, i got my barely-made-it-through final exam.

I used to have this fierce burning passion in me but now it was nothing but a dying sparks. Nothing excites me nor does it even cause a twitch in my half- full soul. Where am I? Have I sunk into the lair of darkness or just floating aimlessly?

What a bummer~ Haix...

I should have not pursued for my favorite drink on Thursday... Regretfull a.k.a full of regrets. Anyway, i was doing my round on the roundabout when a stupid blue fucking blind car crashed on my side and broke my window. And I was like, WHAT???!!!! Are you fucking blind???!!!!! I got off and checked my car as the other car punya blind driver do the same.

scratch from front to the back: checked
shattered window: checked
dented side: checked
Half-floating-away soul: checked
Awesome!

The kesian blind driver was acting all mad for crashing to my car.Real genius. We then move the car to side of the road, somewhere near Four Point. There, he admit that he did not see me as he was crashing his way out from the junction. He then asked me to claim from my insurance company while he claimed from his insurance company for crashing into my car while he coming out from a roundabout junction. At the same time, he being persistent to refusing to pay for my car damages saying he could not afford to pay for my car damages as his car was pretty severe. Yeah, right. Another genius act in action. I told him to wait for my dad to make decisions.

My dad arrived and we all went to do police report. He make his report first as I was not really keen on being the first. Then there's a guy that helped throughout this nonsense ; what to do, when to do, how to solve, who is obviously wrong... The guy told us that we can go back first, he will take care the rest of it. Great! I feel exhausted from the whole drama.

Next thing I know, I was called back to the police station at 7pm as the pathethic blind guy change his statement saying we both were at the roundabout, happily doing our round together, when I decided to crash my side onto his front bumper for fun. DUMBASS! I went back and told the cops my side of the story with prove of the pictures and bringing the cops to the site of the happiness collision. And ofcourse, i won the case. Well at least i think i did. Anyway, I missed my plan for that evening and the whole fun goes on without me... *sniffs, sniffs*

My whole life after that involves a lot of sleep and eat. I didnt feel like want to go out at all. Haix... At least my plan for next week will be still going on... I think... We'll see.

Kesian Cat.... WAKAKAKA

Okay, Its about time for my updated. KTB... Been receiving lots of complain about it.

Where should I start this time???*thinking hard*

First of all, I got into this fight where I've decided to run away n never turn back... You know, shit like tat.... I got my bags packed n etc... As i was waiting for the perfect chance, i accidentally fell asleep.*Peluh* The next morning, my anger was gone but Im still pissed. I have this cold war with her at the same time my bro escaped to cultural village n pissed them off. Instead of getting to my bad side, she changed to get to my good side so that i might support her or shit like that but guess what... Im still PISSED!!

Next is about Cat's Birthday. This conversation below occur days before her birthday...
B: Jme, can I ask u a favor?
Me: Depends. wasup?
B: U guys got music meeting this friday?
Me: No. FC use. y?
B:OO.. I want u to ask all ur frens together celebrate cat's birthday on tat day...
Me:*think for awhile* Cannot. All of us busy on that day. Y dun u ajak her directly, call her... She might say yes.
B: Okay...
*Me laughing in da background*
I play prank even before her birthday. Can u imagine what i did during her birthday? *KTB*
This is the detailed event... So its expected to be long, but i'll try my best not to.

I've been thinking long n hard how to surprise her. So, very sudden, I ask everybody to come early tomorrow(FRIDAY) and bought her cake on that day. We personalized our gift to her, everybody helped. Im nt sure if she surprised on that day, but 1 thing for sure... da special event come forth... B... KTB

Ben went in the room we're in with his own birthday cake... escorted by Michelle of cuz... Karen help unpack the cake for him n ask him 2 sing da birthday song alone all da while, holding the cake in his hand. KTB.... Then cat blew da candles off... Tis time, not sure who ask, for cat n B to cut da cake together... LMAO But cat quickly cut it before weird shit happens. You should see her face. Next, since cat already cut da cake, I asked her 2 feed B da cake. KTB... she without other choice, fed him. *evil laugh* but exchange da cake from hand to hand only. Then i asked B to do the same. The look on both their face is priceless... WAKAKAKA.... But I have to leave early to get my assignment done due that day too... Which I have yet to start.

How i wish i can prank her like that all year long... Haiz...

Anyway, this is the end of it.

P/s: If u've been wondering:
KTB= Ketawa Terbahak- Bahak(LOL)
peluh= sweat

Signing off... Adios Amigos.