Works Tough

Its actually true, the fact that it's definitely hard to find a job/career that you enjoy that don't suck. This few weeks been disasterous and i keep getting swallowed by everything that I did. Some customers a dick and such a pain in the ass but some as nice as a nice people could possibly be. N p/s: the newcomer is an ass.

Ain’t a Good Day

Man~ Just as soon as I’m getting confidence in the job I’m doing, I made a mistake. This is bad. It makes the people working with me has to do a double job. I shouldn’t have act all confidence and proud and rather pay more close details to the things I’m doing and be very careful handling it. This sucks.

I feel bad by just the thoughts of it. Aww Man!~~

Fuck This. I Dont feel that good working here. But I couldnt tell Ah Su cause she always brush it off, saying that I'm pretending and only wanted to show off. And I don't feel like explaining to Evon all the way from the beginning. She dont even know who is who. My mom, dont even get me started. She dont gets me, all she do is mad at me. She wants me to study and work at the same time but I could only do one thing at a time. I'm not super smart or super dedicated. I could barely concentrate on one thing, what more I have to handle 2 things. I'm really exhausted and depressed.

But I couldnt tell anyone. I dont know what I want or what I'm searching for. I dont know what I'm doing or what I'm searching for. My heart is aching now. I swore I could cry if I'm not in office now. My heart feel so hollow. I care-less bout anything or anyone. I keep losing myself in my own world. My imaginary world; not methaphorically. I'm so caught up with myself and everything else doesnt matter. I have no guts and lots of compressed ego. I got nothing.

I reveal my feelings here in a place that no one goes. People around me dont even know I'm blogging. Even if they do know, they dont know where is it. Im not really keen to tell them either. This is the only place where I could really be honest about everything. A place that I know nobody will judge me. I know I'm pretty sarcastic all the time but I also know the reason why I'm sarcastic is because I'm scared. Well as they say, the first step to recovery is admitting your flaws/weaknesses.

A Brand New Flight

The last time I've blogged was before raya and mooncake fest of year 2010 and now its 12 March,2011. Wow~ its been that long.

Here's the thing, I've never thought of going back to blogging but look where I am now. Apparently, I'm bored to death and blogging makes me look like I was doing something. Oh well...

Remember the last time I said I work in a dead end job with lots of work, well not anymore. I'm proud to say now I'm an executive in a listed company. AweSome!!!!! But the only down part is that I don't really have any work to do here as it's only been 2 weeks I'm here. I'm so used to be so occupied during working time that the time flies like a G6, now doing nothing really bother me much. Time was as slow as a G666, direct flight to Land Boredom.

Now here in the new company, there so much things to learn and so little things I've known. As usual, the people was great here. And yea, They speak Chinese here. But my Chinese getting better and its a no problem as long as I can get my message across. But if they're talking fast, OOoo Emmm Geee!!!!!!

And I've just heard a few a places had been hit by tsunami and earth quake. My condolence to those that have lost somebody they've known. Its been awful, so I've heard from a friend but I havent really read about it yet. But I will.

Till here. Life too short to keep talking about. Just live it.

Updated a little only

How long has it been since the last time I've blogged? Hmm~~


Feels like ages ago.


Anyway, Raya was here and Mooncake fest coming up. Looking forward to play lantern (kiddie one) with my bros and sis-es. Gonna be one good of a day. That's all.
Not feeling that awesome today.


Nites/morning/afternoon(choose any one).

Another Saturday~ of work!

Em~ Not sure how to say this out but... her mouth stinks like hell. I have to look away just to breathe in. Haiz~~

And I was left alone in the room for the whole morning. Awesome~ No phone calls, no noise... Peacefull at last...

But I was bored... Bored like hell~

UguguguGagaga~~

Its weird that now I'm blogging for most of the days in a week. Except for Sunday ofcourse. I mean, now I'm craaping all about this (un)interesting field of job. Man~ I'm exhausted just from the thoughts of it.

Pretty soon, there would only be me and my boss's wife doing the billing in the back. Both of my collegues who's with me doing the behind the scene job was leaving. One to futher his study and the other one was forced to leave. It was sad to see them both go.

Pretty soon I'll be doing two person job. Not quite sure I'll be able to handle it or not. I'm feeling so stressed out already. I'm trying to look for a job that don't require a lot of responsibility. Sorta like a dead job without any bright future lights. It's less stressfull. But I dont want to leave the collegues I have now. They were all awesome people. Not sure I'll be able to find people like them anymore.

Oh yea, my headache that I thought was gone come back already. It hurts every single day. Same goes with both my leg. It hurts just from standing, make me feel like I dont even want to move a muscle. Just wanna lay back and watch the world as they pass me by. Sound poethic, huh? My appetite was a goner. Dont really feel like want to do anything at all. Sorta feeling like LLLLllllllAAAaaaaaaZZZZZZZZZy.

Before I forget, the whore starts to treat me back like the last time. Not sure when is my next outburst or whether it'll be minor or major this time around. Let's hope its nothing too much to handle.

Emm~

Gotta go~

Emm~ Wait-- What??!!

Zzz~

Today was a slOooo...wwwWWWwww day.

Damn, I felt like I was having a hangover. But the weirdest part is that I havent drink for a while now. Not interested and not missing it at all. Long live soberness!

My mom's birthday today. Got to head back early for the 7pm dinner. Not sure what we'll be having except there is definitely pork on the table. AWESOME!!!!!!!

But I'm broke already and it's only middle of the month. Got to save up for something else. Now I feel like I'm not sure whether I'll be able to save enough for this end of the year trip or not.

And yeah, It's 3.30pm in the office and I have just pick up the ringing phone phone saying "good morning, Lee****". And I'm like wait-- What?? Luckily the otherpeople on the other line didn't notice it.

So yeah, that's all.

Bye, my Boo(s)~~